Kinda annoyed right now.I'm afraid to know the result yet I think I should go for it because it's useless to be a coward.
God,please please please,
I need you to be with me and bless me in everything.
I really do.
PLEASE! :(
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I had my toughest life back in year 1999.
It's not only for myself,it's for my whole family.
My dad,was once a farmer,that owned a big farm and had more than hundred piggies.
He was a rich and successful man.
Yet,everyone has their ups and downs.
He met financial problem in year 1996,which was terrible for us.
We thought it would be the hardest time for us.
Though it wasn't.
We knew what was the hardest when the disaster came in year 1999.
& it was this pig disease.
There were some farmers and lots of pigs have been killed by this disease.
& my dad teared everyday when he read the newspaper.
I remember he had to worry for us and also for the pigs.
One day,mom and I had lunch after school at a food stall.
& the sun was killing that time so I requested,'Mom,can I have coke,please?'
She answered,'No darling,you should know what situation our family is in now,kay?'
& I just nodded and continued to eat my food.
No one knew that I actually teared when she said that.
Can you imagine?
I wasn't even allowed to have coke!
It was considered as waste that time.
& also,every morning before I went to school,mom gave me my pocket money.
She always took RM 1 for me and I would say,'Do you have 50 cents,mom?'Cause I don't need that much.I will only have a bread and the bread costs 30 cents only.'
Sometimes she gave me RM1,yet I could spend it for 2 days and saved the rest which was not used.
& sometimes,I insisted of getting 50 cents.
That time,I was only 9 and I have no idea how would I be that mature by that time.
Luckily,it changed when we thought it was going to be worse.
God,I don't beg for more.
I just want my family to be happy and healthy and have no burdens nor worries all the time.
Please?
& also,don't bring shits to us anymore.
Your kindness is so much appreciated.
& I know that you would lead me to the right way.
Thank you so much for being with us all the time.
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& now,I'm in the office,waiting for the clock to turn to 5,so that I can go home and get some rest.
To curl my body up,the cover myself with blanket so I won't feel cold anymore,
and to feel the love by my parents.
Yes I'm telling you that I'm menstruating which is torturing me!
No kidding.
Blame on myself for having too much cold drinks?
Why won't you blame on the weather for being so warm all the time and makes me think of having cold drinks every single day and night?!
I have a ridiculous thought when I was being tortured by my womb,
'it's a good idea to get pregnant,at least I could escape from the painful of menstruation for 9 months!'
Ain't it?
There is another reason for me to want go to go home.
My grandma and cousin are here already in KK! :)
I miss them heapsssss!
Okay gotta go now,shall update again soon.
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There is this thing named Panasonic Lumix GF-1 that I'm so obsessed!
Especially the red,white and pink ones.
I would give you a big kiss if you got this to me,thanks!
Don't call me materialistic,blame it on the reality.
Bye!
I'm gonna have ONE meal in a day!
Wish me luck fellows.
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http://www.formspring.me/CherryChai
Here,ask me anything you want to :)
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I'm now alone in office.It's bored,I seriously can't wait till I quit this job,and it's soon,like 28 days more to go :)
I had an interview this morning,for new job,as a part-time tutor.
Will start working on 3rd of May :)
Wish me luck.
& went to Taylor's agency this morning.
Remember that I mentioned about deferment of the scholarship back then?
I didn't get their reply and I started to get worried so I checked it out and they said if I want the scholarship to be secured,I should pay for the registration fee,which is RM600.
As you know,I actually have applied for S.I.M but I only will get the confirmation on mid-May.
I wonder why it takes so long and what if they reject?
So that's the purpose I need the scholarship that has been offered to be secured!
& I was kinda pissed by a staff there cause the way she talked was so unfriendly and to be frank,I dislike her since the first time I went to the office!
Like wth,we need her help,but not to see her face!
As if there was a suggestion box,I would DEFINITELY complain about her!
Then I left and talked to dad about the registration fee.
& he said,'Just wait for the confirmation of S.I.M!'
OKAY,FINE!
You know I have got this sense that I would be rejected by S.I.M and the scholarship by Taylor's would be cancelled.
Congrates,Cherry Chai Liche!
If that really happens,
I will have to wait until next year to start study again!
& the passion in study would definitely fade!
Jeezz!!
God,please bless me in every single thing,please.
Lead me to the right way & bless me with my future.
I need your help.
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As you know,
I got food poisoning yesterday.
I vomited and shitted non-stop,since 6 am yesterday! :( sob
For this time,I was really tough.
I used to be crying after 3 hours of having this but I only cried when I was in the clinic and got the injection,not the painful caused me cry,it's because doctor said that I might need to get into SMC to get the nutrient injection cause my blood pressure was only 80!
All I felt was dizziness.
& nausea.
But,I went home.
& rested.
When I got up and ate some porridge,
I felt dizzy again and vomited again.
So,brother and mom sent me to SMC and get the nutrient injection.
It was surprisingly,painful :(
It's because the doctor took my blood and had a blood test :(
& then mom and brother left to have their dinner and I was alone in the hospital.
So I texted with Yi Hui and took a nap.
& the nutrient injection done at 10.30pm so I went home.
Ate some porridge then went to bed.
Last but not least,
NO MORE STEAMBOAT IN KK!
I seriously don't want this to happen ever again!
God bless me.
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I remember someone ever asked,
' As if you could get something change from God,what would you choose?'
& my answer was,' My eyes.'
But now,
I got my answer changed.
I want a pair of normal legs from God.
If you know me,you would know that my legs are different from others,God knows why.
& when I get into boutique or shops that sell shoes,
those salesgirls or some passer-by(s) would look at me like I was a little monster.
& that's hurt,I swear.
I remember I used to be crying or being upset if someone talked about or stared at my legs.
& now,after 20 years of having this shit from others,
I'm used to it already.
I have a pairs of small eyes and also single-eyelid.
But if I want a pairs of nice eyes and double-eyelid,
I could get plastic surgery.
Yet,I couldn't change my legs.
It's a shame that a lady couldn't put her foot in high-heels.
High-heels are loved.
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Some people said that,
life is just like a movie,
& I know why they said 'like' but not 'is',
it's because,
we have no second take in our lives,
and we have no 'N.G.'
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