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Thursday, July 30, 2009

It was raining really heavily this morning and thank God that the rain affected my mood A LOTS.
I cried again last night before I slept because I was recalling the old memories.
I remembered that I used to spend my weekdays at my nanny's place and when it rained,
I played with myself like,covered my ears and listened to the raindrops.
That's why I cried again this morning.
I moved back to my own house when I got into kindergarten yet I paid visits often.
I remembered when I was in primary 3,
I spend my weekends sometimes at my nanny's place.
Po Po had a lots of diseases like diabetes,high blood pressure and etc so she had to listen to the doctor's advice that she couldn't eat the oily and unhealthy food.
Though,she cooked what I liked,salted-fish,especially.
I was not worrying at all and instead,I thought I was such a heroine because I lighted her day a little bit that she got to eat what she liked.
I just realised that I was such an idiot.
Every single time I visited,she would be like,'Who are you?' due to the blur-sights and half-deaf problem and I had to shout really loud beside her so that she got every single word I said.
& she repeated and repeated the same questions everytime I visited.
e.g.,'Are you graduated now?' or 'What grade you're in now?' or 'When are you leaving and when will you be coming back again?'
Proud of myself that,I answered her questions patiently.
What made me cried was,
when I thought that the next time when I go back to granny's place and pass by the house,
I will not see the old man lying on the chair at the balcony and also,the old woman lying on a chair in the living room with the television playing but nobody's watching.
What I will see is,the locked door.
The empty house;
The house with no lights and fans switch on;
The lonely swing,and so on.
Dear gong gong and po po,
did you both meet up now?
As if you were,
please do not argue,
please promise to love each other,
& please,be happy.
I will spend my whole life time to miss you both because you were the best,bettest,ever!
I love you both,I truly do.

I seek for the wind,
to plead him to bring me back to the old times,
to set all the burdens off of me,
to keep all my love ones around just like how it happened.
Though I was fail even just to seek for the wind.

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R.I.P , I love you!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Someone I love left me,again.

Dad told me a real bad news when I called him to pick me up.
He said that po po,the nanny,had passed away.
I was blanked for one minute.
& when I got home,
brother called me to tell me the bad news and I wanted to cry but I kept holding my tears back.
When I was bathing,
Bye-bye by Mariah Carey was being played.
My tears rolled down automatically and I cried in silent.
I hate myself for didn't manage to visit her when I was back last time.
I hate myself that I never called when she was still alive.
I hate myself that I couldn't do anything to want her back.
Po po is the best po po for me,ever!
She loved me more than her own grandchild.
& now that she had gone,
the house would be empty.
Last 2 years when I was back to hometown,
I was managed to attend gong gong's funeral,
but I couldn't attend hers.
I HATE MYSELF.

Po po,please live happily in heaven.
God,lead her to the place which is fulled of happiness.
Po po,rest in peace.
I love you.
& I will never forget you.
I will not forget how nice were you.
There's always a place deeply in my heart for you and gong gong.
Both of you were the best nannies on earth.
& badly,I've considered that both of you were my very own grandparents for very long time.
REST IN PEACE.

You're on my heart just like a tattoo.
I'm tired of saying goodbye.

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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Attended Eric's party at 50 Bar last night.
Damn it was my unlucky night because I was so blur when playing game with Andrew Wong and he got the advantage on me to keep me drinking.
After a few glasses of liquor,
I felt so dizzy.
I knew I wasn't drunk.
I just felt something kept rolling in my stomach.
Few minutes later I really couldn't stand it anymore and I rushed to the toilet and vomited.
After throwing up twice,
I asked Andrew Wong to send me home.

When we got into the car,
someone was so noisy(neither me nor Andrew Wong,it was someone else) because he was really drunk.
None of us answered his stupid questions.
I couldn't stop myself from laughing.
Andrew(the sunny boy :) ) & I

Qi,please be awaken.I'm scared I'm drunk.
Okay.Oh man,I feel so dizzy.
Don't.I haven't had good sleep for two nights.I'm scared that I may fall asleep in any moment.
Okay okay don't worry.I will stay awake until I reach home.Oh shit,this is exactly the second time I get drunk outside.I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!
*laughed out loud*Do you think you could talk so steady if you were drunk now?
Right.But why on earth I feel so dizzy?
Oh me too me too.I have thrown up for 2 times and I don't feel any better.
ME TOO!I still have to remove the make up when I reach home.DAMNNNNN!
You have to do it anyway.Do you want to see pimples on your face when you got up the next day?
HELL NO!

You know what's the most annoying thing to do when you got home dizzily?
IT IS TO REMOVE MAKE UP instead of throwing myself on my comfortable bed.
I threw up again when I reached home and removed the make up with my eyes closed.
Luckily,it was a good night.

One more thing to certify that I was not drunk,
I remembered every single thing happened last night :)))

Now,excuse me for 5 days.

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Friday, July 24, 2009

Thank God I feel so much better right now.
Had a chocolate moist cake :)
Chocolate does make people feel good,yes?
Especially for girls.

Oh time flies.
July is just coming to an end very soon.
I have 2 weeks to prepare for second-mid-term exam.
& 2 months more for UEC.
I am worrying about it.
It decides my future.
I realised that all of us get depressed when talk about future.
We wish that God would tell us what is the best for us so that we won't regret in the future.
Perhaps God did,in our dream.
Are you not afraid when you're thinking about it?
Tell me how to be optimistic when it brings pessimism.
Your suggestions are much appreciated.

Well,thanks Jon Liew for cheering me up.
Thanks for all the jokes and positive suggestions.
Come and shout,
'I HATE NO.8!!!!!!'

Hatred is never ended by hatred but by love.

Good night loves.
Promise yourselves to get a good weekend kay?
Especially for the ttss-ers,enjoy the weekends because the exam is just around the corner.
Clubbing yes;
shopping yes;
outings yes;
fats yes;
As long as you're happy.
Who cares?
xo


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Stop screwing up my life

Home alone :(((
Should I have my dinner?
Sigh.

Oh today is just so not my day.
Heard something and really pissed off.
You know once I have decided something,I really hate to change it.
I have been suffering these few months just to think of what is the best for me and what is not but you screwed up everything.
Tell me how not to hate you please.
I really wonder do you have your own fucking life.
Please,please,please,please,please,
don't you really screw it up.
I don't wanna re-plan anything.
Either you or I will have to quit.

I woke up in the middle of the night because I had a nightmare.
There was a murderer wanted to kill me because I had a clown toy.
I was so freaked out in my dream.
I kept rubbing my eyes to make sure that it was just a dream and I nearly cry.
& this morning when I was getting ready to go school,
I found out that I have a swollen eye.
It's still hurt :(

Finished Breaking Dawn.
My sister's keeper,I am coming,wait for me.

Hey,
will you consider to quit if I beg?

I want chocolate so badly right NOW.

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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Oh man,what the hell is wrong with this blogger photo uploader thingy?
I can't upload any of the photos!
ANY!
Damn.

I have lost the mojo of blogging tonight anyway.
I'm sleepy while I'm writing this.
By the way,
I'm gonna say bye bye to Breaking Dawn,or any of them.
The last chapter left :(

I'm going to watch He Is Just Not That Into You.
Will share with y'all :)
Night people.
<3

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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I've become my dad's full-time-driver.
I've been sending him here and there for the whole day.
We went for a hair wash before dinner,too.
I had my hair cut.
Sob :(

Do not doubt,do not guess,
my dad still doesn't allow me to drive alone.
Hahaha.
& believe it or not,I'm getting tired of driving.

Brother and I went to Tong Hing to look for wine after dinner.
& went Coffee Bean for a drink :)
People envy me so much because I have brothers that always bring me here and there.
Well,I've to admit that I'm really glad to have both of them,
except for the time being scolded by them.
I will try to post up the photos of my brothers.
& tell me if any of you are interested to meet'em up.
Yes I'm selling them.
Hahaha.
Not refundable,though.

Oh yeah,
anyone who reads my blog,
if you smoke,
hope you may quit smoking.
Not that any of that is my business.
But,AT LEAST,at least,
PLEASE,please,
do not smoke when I'm there with you.
My lung is getting weaker and I can't stop coughing when I smell the smoke.
You wouldn't torture me that much,will you?
Do me a little favor,please.
I appreciate it very much.

Well well,
exam is coming soooo soon.
Have to start study :(

Have you smile from the bottom of your heart today?
If you didn't,please SMILE now.
Say cheesssseeeeeee :)
Good night,loves.

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Monday, July 20, 2009

I have just told my dad that Monash is my very first option and surprisingly,he didn't disagree.
Instead,he looked for the information I've grabbed at the education fair yesterday.
So I guess I will be staying in Malaysia to continue on my studies.
Is it a good thing?
Hmm we will have to wait and see.
Oh well,I'm still not sure whether is it going to happen.
Under consideration,that's all I can say.

I told you,I'm afraid to think of the future.
I can only accept what is coming to me and face it and solve it,as if I can.

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Sunday, July 19, 2009

I'm now talking phone with my aunty.
Aunty Michelle.
She is my rockest aunty,ever.
She is very open-minded so that I tell her everything.
& so she does.
I love talking with her.
She told me lotsa things and I nearly cried.
Well she will be coming over on August.
Can't wait to see her :)

So I guess people who read my profile did laugh so hard?
Yes Jonathan Liew?
Hahaha.
I told you,I love laughters.
Enjoy laughing readers.
Buenas Noches :)

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Oh well,the bazaar was just normal.
Less than normal,I should say.
The weather was driving me crazy.
But it's raining heavily while I'm writing this.
You know I love rains right? :)))

& here,I'm gonna show you who is my new found lover.

Emma Watson (:
No,I'm not a fan of Harry Potter.

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Saturday, July 18, 2009

Oh my,
we need to go to school in the early morning like usual because of the freaking education fair!
Ugh!
Bazaar after that.
Hope it will be funnnnn!

Oh so Breaking Dawn will be finished reading soon,too.
7 chapters to go.
What's next?
We'll see ;)

Have you ever heard of a long joke?
Loooooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg joke.

This is sooooooooooo lame,I know.
Well,end your day with a smile babes :)
Buenas Noches.

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Friday, July 17, 2009


Never take someone for granted.
Hold every person close to your heart
because you might wake up one day
and realise that you've lost a diamond while you were too busy collecting stones

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I was checking on my facebook this morning when I woke up.
Saw Kathy wrote something on my wall.
She told me that she is so bored in Melbourne.
She is the only one who doesn't enjoy the life oversea.
Whatthehell Kathy!
You know you should enjoy it!
4 months to go babe!
4 months!
You're gonna say bye-bye to your high school.
You will be staying in Melbourne,though.
Hahaha!
I know you miss me and I miss you too.
Very much.
<3

Well,
Tshung Tsin has a bazaar on Sunday.
Come and join if you're interested :)
&&&&&,
since Sunday is bazaar day and most of the teachers and students will be helping there,
principal finally announced that WE HAVE A DAY OFF ON MONDAY!
That's the news we have been waiting for!
Excited,yes :)

Let's shoppinggg :)

Hey you,
would you mind to get your own life?

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Thursday, July 16, 2009

PMS-ing,the reason for my absence today.

Stop trying to mess up with my life please.
If you were trying to upset me,
you could go back with the victory.
You won!
Okay?
You're the winner.

& now,
will you leave?

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Monday, July 13, 2009

OMG,
MJ's you're not alone made me cry again!
Sigh.
Sigh a big sigh.

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I stayed up late last night.
I was recalling the memories in Hin Hua.
I remembered that I had 11 room mates.
3 of them were the seniors.
I was so worried when I knew that I was arranged to stay in the same room with them.
'Cause they were unfriendly.
But after a period of time,
they had changed to be very nice.
One of them was my friend's sister.
She liked to stick with me.
She shared everything with me,too.
I was glad to have them in the hostel.

Then,the classmates.
Not classmates but the close friends.
We were a gang.
A huge gang.
Girls and guys all together.
The guys were so protective.
They wouldn't let anyone to hurt us,the girls.
Of course,
they were few couples in our gang.
& of course,
all had broken up ages ago.
Oh man,
I missed them so badly and my tears rolled down automatically.
How would life turn out to be if I didn't require to transfer?

& now,
I have a totally different life.
With my crazy friends around.
I'm happy to have them.
I know sometimes I have been so unreasonable,
you all still mean a lot to me,though.
The secondary life is gonna ended in 4 months.
All I want to say is,
my dearest friends,
I love you all :)
Thanks for being supportive and caring and loving all the time.
Senior 3 Ai@2009,
you'll be in my heart always and forever :)

Oh,I'm addicted to Scrabble :)
Ruth,is the best partner ever!

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Sunday, July 12, 2009

Dad & I

Dad,do you know that I will be graduated in 4 months?
Of course.Why?
Have you plan anything for me?
No.
What?!
We will talk about this when you really graduate.

I was like,what the hell!
Hahaha.
I actually have a plan,though.
We'll see if I can make it out.

Friends,have you started worry about it?
F.U.T.U.R.E.,I really wish I could just escape.

Bright or dark?
I have no idea.

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Thursday, July 9, 2009

Before my tuition started,
I was so pissed off because my dad told me that he had to pick up someone from the airport so means that he would be late to pick me up from tuition.
Then I kept scolding.
& after solving some maths questions,
I started to laugh and all craps.
Joanne said,'Have anyone ever told you that you're so emo?'
Then I was speechless.
Yeah I know I'm emo!
Hahaha.
This is random okay I know.

Oh yeah,I had dinner at FireFly with my brother.
It's raining.
I love the weather though I was freezing!
Hope the rain goes on for the whole night so that I can have a nice sleep without having any nightmare.
Good night & sleep tight people :)
xo

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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I had 2 tuitions in a day.
Sigh.
Have rushed here and there for the whole day.
Have been video-ing a lots today,too.
All of us have seriously gone crazy!
But I love it.
Enjoying the life :)))
I know you do too babes!

So I just listened to Michael Jackson's You're Not Alone in hitz.
Before the song started to play,
it was a voice recording of Paris,Michael's thirteen-years-old daughter saying something for the ceremony last night.
'Ever since I was born,daddy is the best father!All I want to say is I love him!'
& it actually made my cry!
You're not alone,MJ!
R.I.P.

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Monday, July 6, 2009

Oh Edward,
marry me please,will you?
:))))))

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Sunday, July 5, 2009

Today is a bad day for me.
I cried when I wasn't even awake!
Can you believe that?
Blame on someone!

I am having a terrible time with my dad right now.
He is so mad at me and I seriously have no idea why.
He scolds or shouts whenever and whatever I say.
That's unreasonable.
I really wish to pack for myself and ran away.
I don't even know what's the point for my survival.

So I've been thinking a lot today.
More than a lot.
& I promised myself that I won't shed a tear for anything doesn't worth it anymore.
It's so tiring.
I will be tougher than I used to be.

[Take me away]

Only one good thing,
brother bought Breaking Dawn for me.
Yeahhhh :)))


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Saturday, July 4, 2009

So today was the Teacher's Day :)
We did HAVE FUN.
The senior 3 commerce ones know why am I saying this.
Didn't you all have fun too?

I need a big companion for sleep.

I can sense the bad things coming.
When is the bad luck gonna leave me?
Damn!

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Friday, July 3, 2009

I want Breaking Dawn now!
NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!
Okay I will finish Eclipse tonight?
Or tomorrow.
Only 2 chapters left.
So I want to have Breaking Dawn now or tomorrow.
Brother,
I hope you see this!
Buy it for me tomorrow!

Qin uploaded the photos of us preparing for the sports day since last year.
When I saw it,
I really felt like crying.
It will be the most memorable memories for me.
I will never forget anything about it.
& that reminds me of something.
We are gonna graduate in 4 months.
Just 4 months!
Time does fly,no?
To Senior 3 Ai,
I cherish every moment that we spend together.
All the joy and excitement :)

It's you who wants to find out the truth so don't blame.
You know it's gonna upset you but you insisted to do that.
Babe,

[this carriage will never belong to you]
please stay away from the fairy tales.
Your prince will never appear,
& you will not be the princess.

Please tell me what to do.

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I was checking on Gossip Girl's & Blake Lively's twitters just now and I got that Hilary Duff joined Gossip Girl.
Oh my oh my!
Wondering what will happen in Season 3.
Can't wait for it!

14th of September!

xo

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Thursday, July 2, 2009

So the Mathematics test is on tomorrow.
Bet someone is working hard out there.

By the way,
I love my blogskin,
truly,madly,deeply :)))
Woo hoo :))

Just read the chapter 20 of Eclipse.
& Edward proposed to Bella!
Oh gosh,
come come Edward,
I do!
Please marry me!
:))))))))
Good night people.

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Yes twitter,come & join! :)

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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

I want the whole collection of Twilight,New Moon,Eclipse and Breaking Dawn please.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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Apology

To my Queen,my mother,again.

Mom,
this is an apology from 3 of us(sure both of them didn't know I'm writing this).
We are really sorry for everything we have done.
I do know that sorry no cure because the damage is done.
& I know that you have cried because of us for many times.
You never stop worrying about us;
you never give up on us.
Though,
I know you're really fed up of this kind of life.
You don't deserve this.
You deserve everything better.
You deserve the kids who are smart in study;
You deserve the kids who won't get you worried;
you deserve all the best things.
Mom,
you should have enjoyed your own life.
But one thing I must say is,
I love you.
I don't wish to see you cry but I can't stop the bad things coming.
Sometimes I really wish that I had a spell and power to make you be happy every second,every minute,every hour,every day.
But I can't.
I'm sorry for being immature.
No,we are!
All we want is,
you live happily always.

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Life quote no.2: Everyone wants happiness,no one wants the pain; you can't get the rainbow without a lil rain :)

Love quote,the one and only: Love when you're ready,not when you're lonely

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