Shh shut up! I have had enough of all of this. Seriously,I don't mind if it's true but IT IS NOT! If you think she is right then just support whatever she does but DON'T,don't come and sympathy me because I have my own friends and I don't need you all. I just want to finish my Senior 3 life peacefully. Can you all please just go away? Not to mess up my life anymore PLEASE! Stop being a faker. I don't mind if we aren't friends but don't act to be my friends and after all you backstabbed me! Stop doing that! Please,GET A LIFE! Would you bring me along to go with you if you could? & would you be by my side and tell me,'Darling,I will be there for you no matter what.' I miss you badly. 0 Comments
Today is seriously my bad day. I had a big fight with my daddy. Seriously,I have been tolerating for many days and today I really couldn't stand it anymore. I shouted to him and cried really hard. I screamed and told him about my feelings. I'm really so sick of my life. & just now we celebrated Ruth's birthday in Wave. We all got high. When I sang a Hokkien song,I felt like crying because the song I learned to sing to my daddy. I didn't mean to talk back because I know I will get my pay back one day in the future. I don't want. I know I hurt him very much and I really feel so bad. But sigh.
& one more thing! Bitches,stop bitching around okay? You're already grown to be bitch but control yourself! Don't do everything too over! Grow up okay? You're 18 already! Stop playing this game. You had been studying in TTSS for 5 years,won't you tired of being bitch? Enough okay?ENOUGH! FUCK OFF! 0 Comments
Friday, March 27, 2009
Had dinner at Supertanker with Uncle Danny just now. I was so scared that he would say that I've gained lots of weights when he saw me but luckily he didn't(doesn't mean that I didn't gain weight :( )
Uncle Danny is so loving and caring. He cares everything about us. I used to hate him(not really,just he was very strict to us) My cousin ever said this to me,'He scolds because he really cares about you.You'll be regret one day if he refuses to say even a word to you!
Ever got a moment my tears gonna roll down when I was talking to him because I haven't seen him in ages and now finally he came to KK to meet up with us. We all know he is facing some bad problems but he never show his bad emotion in front of us. He never asked us for help even just be there to listen to him. I saw the pain through his eyes; saw his hair getting white; but still,he smiled and laughed. My dear Vivian,I hope you read this post. I hope you know that your daddy is a perfect daddy and he loves you very much. Be a good girl. Forgive me that I can't be there when you really need a listener; Forgive me that I can't keep my words because I have to pursue my dreams. I promise,when my dream comes true,you'll be the first one I share the happiness and pride. I love you and I miss you! One day the pain will past and only the beautiful remains. & sometimes,I really wish that you're here to let me to lay on your shoulder when I cry; hold my hands when I am freezing; tell me that you'll be by my side to get through everything. 0 Comments
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
No please,do not grab my people or my things away from me.PLEASE.
I got all of my papers back today. Surprisingly,I passed my Chinese,but it's 60!(luckily) The rest,just not so good :( I feel so sorry to myself because...*sigh*
Hmm,yeah I didn't mention that I'm the programmer of Mathematics Club this year,did I? I know you all must be,'OMG!What?You're in Mathematics Club?I thought only nerds are in this club!' If you really have that thought,you are so wrong!HAHA. Instead,mostly of the naughty ones are in this club BECAUSE Maths Club used to be the most free club. We could leave before 3.30pm; We could walk here and there after marking the attendance; & etc. But it changed. We can only go home after the bell rings. It was a bad thing for me last year because I really hated to attend the club activity. It was so boring. No one really liked to go actually. But now,the club activity isn't that boring anymore. Especially this Friday because it is our club party. We will have Sushi King and YoYo,nice? (:
We talked a lot when we were having the assembly this morning. & we just realised that we all are having the same problem recently,argument with parents. We agree that parents never be satisfied; They always think that they're always right; They never give compliment when we have done something great but they punish when we have done some mistakes; They never apologise; & so on. Deeply in our hearts,we always wish to be the perfect ones for you but we never be. We apologise for not being the great ones. Sorry. & we love you! 0 Comments
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Do you know Kelly Chen is pregnant? (: What a good news.Heheheh. See,she is so pretty! 0 Comments
Hate me or love me I don't care at all. In fact,I wish you to hate me because when I have to leave you will not be so sad and so do I. I just,sick of my life. 0 Comments
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
So babes,how's holiday treating you all? Have all fun? :) Share with me :)
Wanna know how my face turned when I thought of you? 1.Laughed or smiled when I thought of the stupid things we had done 2.Recalled everything you ever told me and began to wonder how would things turned out to be if ... 3.Tears rolled down my cheeks cause I knew I didn't really appreciate 4.Prayed a thousand times in my mind that you'll be living happily 5.Told myself I don't like you anymore but I just missed the days when you were by my side 6.Knocked my head and told myself everything's over and smiled again 0 Comments
The friendship between us has been lasting for 4 years. We had lots of problem during this period of time. BUT,in the end,we get through everything together. & now,you're in Perth which is so far from KK. I will only manage to see you twice or maybe more in a year. Which is really less for us but we believe that our friendship will never fade right? I will always hold it until the day I can't. That's my promise. & I will still always be with you. When you're happy,you can text me to share the happiness with me; When you're sad,you can tell me the problem and we will think the best way to solve it, just like how we did. I will pay you a visit so don't worry. I wont forget cause you and your dad are like,remind me everyday! Hahaha. Met your dad the other day in Foh Sang and when he saw me he was like,'When will you go Austrlia?Go Perth?' (: So sweet and I'm really glad! I will persuade my dad to let me go (: Can't wait till the day you come back :( Promise,be happy all the time. I don't wish to see your tears anymore. I have seen it for a thousand times. Don't let anyone to hurt you. Love you babe! 0 Comments
Kelly Clarkson has an amazing voice don't you agree?
From the Breakaway to Since You've Been Gone to Because of You & now,My Life Would Suck Without You
She is pretty!
And Beyonce-Halo
It's really a nice song. & oh,her body line is so-woah HOT!
Babes,it's Saturday night. So put on your make up and let's partyyy! (:
My true friend,this post is especially for you :) I know how you feel. I really do. But I found no words to console. You've done your very best in the exam. Parents never be satisfied. Don't be lost. You're still the smart one. You're still the funniest,the good in leading and smart in studies one. We are always here to support you,no matter what. We all know you can do the best in everything so don't doubt yourself and prove it to the ones who ever doubt you. Just to let you know,we will always be there for you ! (:
Finally the exam is over! We didn't hang out today. We all don't really have the mood to go out after getting SPM results. We know it's all over but we are so not impressed. Even some of us thinking to retake SPM. Look forward? Well it's not that easy. Just to work and study harder to do better in UEC. Sigh I hope I can really do better but UEC is harder. What about the rest of you? Wanna share about your feeling? Text me anytime (: I really shouldn't miss you but I can't let you go 0 Comments
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Tomorrow,the last day of exam - Subject : Advanced Business Calculation
So we got our SPM results today. My result isn't really good *sigh* Sorry I didn't really do well :(
Tomorrow,the 5th day of exam: English and BK(sigh) Tomorrow is the actual day of SPM results be released,but I guess we(the TTSS-ers) will only get it on Friday? Oh dears,don't you all worry about it?
By the way,Friday is the last day of exam(the day after tomorrow) Wootttt! HAPPY! (:
Do you wanna out with me later? No. Why? I'm very tired and I'm not feeling so well. Out with me aye.I promise I will bring you home before 11.45 pm. No,you wont!You would tell me your friends want you to stay longer there!You always cheat! Nah,I wont cheat you.Trust me! I don't want.I wanna stay at home and study! You wont study even if you stay at home!Go with me lah. Ish!Fine.Bring me home before 11.30pm!
After dinner I really don't wanna go! Why?You said you wanna go. Because I know you wont bring me home in time! I will,trust me kay? *speechless* So we went to BarSu again. I just sitting there and texting with friends. When it got crowded,my eyes started to swollen because of the smoke. And it was 10.30 pm that time. Can we go home now? 11.45pm. Sigh.
11.15pm Why didn't your friends come tonight? Don't know.Can I call my friends to come fetch me? Cannot! Why?I really wanna go home.I'm not feeling well! 30 mins later we go home! or before 12.15 am. *stared at him*NO WAY! Okay okay 11.45 pm. 11.45 pm His friends: Why you seem so moody tonight? I'm not feeling well. Why you keep texting?With your boyfriend? No. So you have boyfriend? No. Then who is the one you texting with? Friends. Don't be so moody eh. I wanna go home!!!
12.30 am Do you wanna go home seriously? Give me more 15 mins! Fine!You yourself have fun! *ran out from BarSu and brother chased at the back* Where you want to go? I call my friend to send me home! Cannot! Why?I hate you very much!I will never trust you! Give me more 10 mins! You said go home after 11.45 pm or before 12.15 am.But it's 12.45 am already!Why you never keep your promise? Fine!You wait me in the car.
Resting while listening to songs for 15 mins he just be willing to go home. I was so pissed off so I didn't talk with him. I tell myself I will never out with him again. I hate to be cheated! I know no one likes. Don't promise if you know you can't do it. Don't speak LIAR! 0 Comments
Saturday, March 7, 2009
The 2nd day of exam : Chinese
Hmm,I went to check my eyes just now. The doctor told me that I shouldn't wear contact lens that often :( He said wearing glasses is safer. Fine,I won't be wearing contact lens to school anymore(I guess). I will wear glasses on weekdays and wear contact lens on weekends. Sigh. How could this happen to me? So UNFAIR! =[ 0 Comments
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Tomorrow is the first day of first mid-term. Subject:ECCCH 0 Comments
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Today was blood donation day of Institute Sinaran. I just wanted to have a blood test but all my friends kept persuading me to donate blood. I was really scared because I never donated blood before. But in the end,I did it. And surprisingly,it wasn't pain at all. I'm proud of myself that I didn't cry nor scream*wink* Hope my blood will save someone.
Here're some pics (: Nervous and also excited
Jackson Chong fooling with me! In progress & talking with friends The blood My blood :(
The wound.
I did a good thing today. Will add some new photos later (:
*Happy birthday to big brother and Shareen.Have a great one.
Exam is coming very soon. Good luck all the candidates (: 0 Comments
All of a sudden,I miss my aunty whom resting in peace again. Whenever I heard the relatives mentioned about her, my tears just automatically dropped, especially when my cousins said, 'When my mom was alive,she did this to us.' 'When my mom was alive,she didn't allow us to do this.' & etc. I don't feel like going back to hometown anymore. I won't hear the voice of the one who talked so loud and laughed so hard anymore. She had gone and will never come back. I wish she's now living in heaven without worries and burdens. & God,please bless her sons and daughter. This is one of my uncle's posts in his blog: An E-mail:
我很想念你！媽媽，今天在幼稚園有才藝表演，但是因為我沒有媽媽，所以沒有去參加，我也沒有告訴爸爸，怕爸爸會 想念媽媽。爸爸到處去找我，但我為了讓爸爸看到我很開心的樣子，所以故意坐在電動玩具面前，雖然爸爸罵我，但是我到最後也沒有告訴他原因。媽媽，我每天都 看到爸爸因為想念媽媽而哭泣，我想爸爸也跟我一樣，很想念媽媽吧！但是，媽，我現在已經記不清楚你的臉。媽媽，請你讓我在夢中，再一次能夠看到你的臉，好 嗎？聽說把想念的人的照片放在懷裡睡覺，就會夢到那個人。可是，媽媽，為什麼你沒有出現在我的夢裡呢？」 Vivian told us that little Tyson has a diary. He writes whatever happens of the day or the words he wants to tell his mom in his diary. This lil naughty child,has been so strong and tough.
So I went to BarSu with my brother and his friends last night. It was fully booking and there was 1 table left so we just used it. I had this cocktail named Rainbow.
I love the colours of the cocktail though it wasn't tasty. I was so so so boring and I just texted with friends. Suddenly I saw Shiz and Rachel Lee. They were at the parking area that time so I ran out from BarSu and looked for them. They wanted to go Rumba to celebrate Jonathan Liew's birthday that time. So I joined them. Unfortunately,the bouncer didn't allow me to go in. He wanted me to show him my I.C. & I forgot to bring so I just told Shiz I couldn't get in so we moved to Bed.(Sorry) An hour later,I went back to BarSu. Few minutes later,Shiz texted and asked me to go Bed so I went there again. (The same thing just repeated and repeated for the whole night.I walked from BarSu to Bed then BarSu then Bed =.= ) I quite enjoyed the night (:
Oh,my cousins,uncle and grandma paid us a visit on 16th of February. I skipped class on the next day and went to Pulau Manukan with cousins and big brother. I love the scene in Manukan.
I built up the wall to protect myself : -Not to be hurt; -Not to be bullied; -Not to be cheated; -Not to be betrayed; Baby,I'm just a little too not over you. 0 Comments
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