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I'm the worst,EVER
Saturday, August 30, 2008

Everyone has mistaken.
Some of the mistakes will be forgiven but some of them will not be forgiven.
We talk.
Sometimes,people misunderstood us when we say something.
They say we hurt them.
But they never think that they hurt us too.

I joked something with my dad.
He was so serious.
He said he was so disappointed with those things I have been saying these few days.
He said I hurt him.
BUT,
he said something which hurt me loads too.
What was he doing when I cried?
What was he doing when I felt hurt?
What was he doing when I was sad because my dad didn't even trust me?
The words he said hurt me loads!
But I didn't talk back that time,
didn't even say a word.
I just locked myself in my room and cried.
I felt so helpless and lonely because I found no one could listen to me.
Then he would act like nothing had happened the next day.
This hurt me too!
When I decided not to talk to him,
he wanted me to talk.
He might be saying that I didn't respect him if I said something that I didn't mean it.
Wasn't this funny?

I'm sad when I knew I hurt him.
I cry and I know it's useless.
I just said something that I didn't mean it and he got mad.
But,he gives chances to my brothers again and again(especially my second brother)
My second brother uses things to cover his mistakes and my dad will simply forgive him.
My dad will be happy if my brother promise him to change even though he never keep his promises.

I tried and tried to do my best in everything.
But,he never be satisfied.
He never praise me even if I have done something great.
He always says like I'm the worst daughter in this world.
Perhaps I am.

I've grown up through all of this.
All the wounds are hiding deeply in my heart.
And now,it become scars.
Scars that will never be gone.
Scars that will be in my heart forever.

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